Life is changing. Actually... what a strange statement. Isn't life just one revolving set of changes? Just when you have things figured out and you think you know your trajectory - a curve balls heads in your direction and you have to rethink your course. Those of you who know me well know we had lots of challenges in our lives regarding Silas, my 18 month old, who was born with a rare condition called Benign Paroxsymal Torticollis. See that first word? Benign? Yeah... the first time I read those words it jumped and grabbed me. It rattled me awake and told me that despite all the grave outcomes I thought were coming my way - that instead there was hope... hope that in the end everything would be OK! But it also told me that I had a special set of challenges and that I have such a short time to really share and impact my kid's lives. I was a little absorbed in things that God didn't want me so engrossed in at the time. And He sometimes has ways to get the message to you that are a little unorthodox but very effective. ANYWAY...this is all one LONG story which I will share in the not too distant future. It's just too amazing not to share.
Well - all this to say this: I took a full year off from photography to be with my son. Work with him through physical therapy and play as much as possible and give him the extra attention that he has needed through this sickness. He is slowly but surely rising out of it....has caught up physically and is now working on speech. Medical experts say it generally resolves between 2 and 3. I am looking forward to whenever that time is for us but in the meantime am actually grateful (Thank you Jesus what a victory) that God found us worthy of this trial. I made friends I would never have had, found God to be a friend like no other and will always have a burden for others in trials like this that I never could have had. Taking the time off has been SO worth it and he and Lydia and Wes will continue to be my top priority. That IS outside of God. I have found myself convicted of late that I just don't give enough time to the Lord. He has done SO SO SO much for me in the past year that I owe him EVERYTHING. I don't want one thing... work, talents, friendships, illnesses etc. to be an idol I place before him. WHICH brings me to why I am writing this post.
I'm not really sure what I want to do with my photography. I'm torn as to whether I want to continue taking on weddings or just concentrate on family and children in the near vicinity. For those of you who pray - pray God leads me and gives me discernment in this matter. I have days where I feel like maybe I should give away all my equipment and not do it at all. I'm grateful that God has gotten me to a place where this hobby is not my idol. It's just something I want to do if HE wants me to do it. I am going to attempt to do some photo work this year and just see how it goes. I still love it... it excites me and I feel like I get to reach people and communicate in a special way that God has given me. I don't have a lot of time though and blog posts take a LONG time. So I decided that I would instead use facebook for the majority of my photo posts. If you like looking at my photos and sharing/commenting etc. please head over to my facebook page and hit "like". I'll hopefully be a bit more active on there. https://www.facebook.com/pages/Sarah-Neal-Photography/115983088412308 . But again... please do keep me in your prayers in this matter.
For now Good night and God Bless you wherever you are. Thanks for your support through the years.